everytins seems so wrg aft da womad festival
everytins was stil so good wen i was @ womad..
feng was wkin dere..saw him tok to him too..
shld haf jz stay dere wif him le..
n everytin went wrg ever since i left fort cannin for mos.
da moment i sat @ da rdside, waitin for ifah to cum i saw him!
kao was stil hopin wishin i wil nt see him bt indeed i sumhw did.
pretendin nt to c him was act kip lokin, wonderin did he saw mi nt?
im jz across him, he iz Q-in up..i believed tt he saw mi..bt he pretend nt to.
caught his stun lok wen he saw mi.
i knew he did..bt he din wave he pretend nt to c mi n off he went in..
my heart sank...stil tinkin mayb he wil msg mi..
totally no mood le dun even feel lyk gg in le..
was stil on da fone wif ifah bt i cant concentate duno wat she tokin ever since i saw him opp...
wait n wait bt my hp din appear his msg...totally disappointed
bt stil haf to go in since i areadi promise redza le mah
n im so late le areadi 1+am since i wait for ifah n frens..
my heart felt heavy coz i noe i wil sure c him ltr on duno hw to react if i c him again
was @ da hse music a while coz ifah frens was dere
n da moment i step in smoove i saw him!
gosh...my heart sank he jz wok paz mi towards da washrm
he din c mi n i noe he drunk le
waited otside hopin he wil c mi wen he cum ot n while waitin 4 red to cum n fetch us
he did came ot n wok paz mi kaoz i saw him again bt he miz mi again aishhh...
cant find red so decided shall jz go in n search 4 him..
i went in went to da direction he wok in.
.paz by da stairsway da place tt i know him,
n dere i saw him standin wif his frens..
pretended to nt c him..bt he did saw mi bt din do anitin
wok tru n a whole round din c redza went bk to da orginal place as ifah n frens stil waitin 4 mi..
soon redza came n brought mi in..ifah went bk to trance n sae b bk ltr..
wokin bk da same lane i fear to c him bt yet wanitin to..
lok towards da direction where he was standin earlier on.
.bt i din c him haiz i turn to da left side where da laz tym we Used to sit..
ah..dere he iz n both of our eyes mit..
cant pretend nt to c each other either
sae to him u drunk again? he jz smile n sae he iz ok lah..
wonder did he saw redza..n off i sae gtg
cant bear wanted to tok more to him bt red iz jz infront of mi waitin..
decided to get a drink n mk a excuse to go bk dere again wantin to get an ice water 4 him
bt luki i din..went bk din c him..so i wok another rd.
.i saw him in another side quietly wok paz duno whether he saw nt.
.bt my heart hurts as i wok paz him n dem.
.coz i noe he iz aviodin mi..frm another corner to here so obvious..
bt y did he had to do tt ??? i dun understand..
totally moodless..soon redza frens left n left us
well i totally no mood
we went to da dance floor..
haiz my mind n heart so confusin..wonderin wat's went wrg
decided to msg feng..he shld knock off le mah
he sae he was partyin @ fort cannin
in my heart i shld haf jz stay dere wif him jz nw..
wat worst wen i turn i saw 2 familar faces feng's bez bros kao
god i wish dere a hole to hid..
worst part wen we gg ot redza knock onto his fren
haiz had to sae hi to his frens..
wonderin wat's dere reaction wen dey saw mi wif a guy kaoz
n feng din reply mi aft i told him i tink i saw his frens
haiz wat a dae! damn it!!
da worst nt yet over man...
coz wen ifah came n join mi aft red left
n wen we found ifah fren he was jz beside khai kao
i reali duno wat to do..i was standin jz beside him
bt seems tt he iz drUnk or he preteNdin again
u noe hw i felt? he was so NEAr yet sOO faR.....
we stand beside each other.. he wif his frens n mi wif mine..
bt act lyk we duno each other.
my eyes was on his side da whole nite..
wantin n wonderin wats wrg wif him or us?
wen we get closer da more da further he move away..
guess hw i felt want in to wok up to him a few tyms bt stil i din
hopin i could jz gif him a few tite slaps wake him up man!
totally moodless..left da place once da tin over
sitin outside well waitin for all ifah fren de frens
turn towards da left side saw him again haiz
sat dere for a while he was dere too even saw him buyin curry puffs
aish i guess he saw mi too..bt we were @ da far end of each side
momories came wellin in..
..aish exactly 1 mth ago da 2nd tym i mit him
we were here wif his bros to support ifah da snag babe..
we were so close den..tokin n fitin arguein wif his bros
irony a mth ltr we act lyk strangrers!!! wtf
tt's nt da end yet..god had to wok paz him coz we gg mac
imagine nt i wok paz him i lok i stare @ him
i duno whether to smile or nt
guess i sumhw gif a fake smile
bt he............NOtin!!!
worst cum to worst aft sitin dwn @ mac
my food was here n he came wokin paz sitin jz beside n across mi
wah kao ehh no appetite man!
shit lah wen ltr we change inside coz rainin
worst jz directly opp him..
he was beside dis gal.............n ltr he left wif dis gal
wokin paz i seen him gone wif da gal..
wtf...
i sumhw know da sudden change in him mayb gt new fren or gf baz
bt i cant stand wat did i do wrg or wat wrg wif us????
i tot im suppose to b angry for his @ fault 4 forgetin our movie date laz sat
bt y seems da other way round?
why he behave jz lyk ace kaoz
twice in a mth i cant tk it loh!
i tot i learnt frm ace lesseon nt to rush tins
bt y it seems da same tin happenin again?
wat went wrg wat did i do?
for u my fren...
15 July marks da dae i noe him
mit 5 tyms
26 aug marks da end of everytin..?
hw can he ignore mi ?
hw can he treat notin happen?
n act lyk he duno mi?!?!?!?
i cant tk it i muz noe da reason im gone tok to him!
i dun wana lost another fren tt i can clink wif.
y wen i tot i found tt sumOne
i tot who can replace him
bt everytins seems to go wrg n fal apart.. jz wen i began to c a pic..
how can men b so heartless?
hw can u jz forget abt everytin..
i tot u r dif frm da rest bt seems tt u da same
u r da first n onli guy tt i gif my no. to frm club
i guess wil jz stick to nt gifin my no. to strangers animore!
i tot u wil b dif frm my frens wen u show up durin my bdae chalet
u seems so steady wenever i ask u ot
bt wat went wrg? coz of laz sat incident?
i shld b anrgy wif ya for forgetin n nt da other wae round..
i miZ our frenshiP
i miz yOu
& i miz uS
but wat i reali miz da moSt
iz not jz U & uS
but hOw it all begaN.....
memories of u n us @ mos kip appearin in my mind..
in smoove near da stairway da guy whom tok to mi
who ask i came alone?
who tot im drunk
who tok to mi wen i was left alone
who ask mi to dance wif him bt i din we end up sitin dwn n tok
who ask 4 my no. wen he abt to leave
who msg mi wen i reach hm
who msg mi eveydae withot fail 4 da 1st wk
who den i realise we share so much common interests
da guy tt lyk to eat ice cream..
tkin pics
shoppins
chillin ot wif frens
partyin
movie
so into horo
long woks etc...
da guy who iz a piggy saein im a piglet
da sunshine boi alwaze seen wif his big smile whom i cal mr sunni
da guy who luff lyk a kid
da guy who cant drink yet alwaze drunk
da guy who iz forgetful n had shorterm memory
da guy who alwaze slps n slps n Zzz
da onli guy who poke his eyes while eatin
da silly bmt paltton sergeant
da guy who cant tk care of himself wen he drunk
da guy who nv fails to turn up on my bdae chalet
da guy whoes frens noe mi even b4 i saw dem
da guy who had a 2pid lok wenever he iz drunk tt i lyk to disturb
da guy who suppose to wait 4 my cal to join him
end up drunk in end da i rush dwn to mit him n his fren otside mos half drunk
da guy who was drunk n rest on my arm n slp @ liang court mac da whole nite
da guy who i rest on well he lean on my arm
da guy who send mi hm holdin my finger in da cab while his fren lean on him falin aslp
tt silly, childish, innocent, funni, lame, imature boi
it all started frm MOs...
smoove...otside of mos...double o bk to mos...otside of mos..liang court mac til mornin ..bk to sgon..mos..mac
1st~ MOs
2nd ~ MOs..double O
3rd~ costa sand chalet
4th ~ otside mOs..liang court mac..braddell..sgon..tamp
5th ~ Mos
WHO was da guy it was ya Khai
hw can i pretend or sae i forget abt u...jz lidat...
i wonder hw did ya did tt? a great actor indeed u r...
im LOst...
wat happen? y did ya behave lidat
y so curel to let my heart fal n leavin mi pick up da scattered pieces all by myself
how could you...
i dun wana bide gdbye to dis fren yet
i wana noe da reason b4 lostin another fren
he iz dif frm him...
dOse memOries r lyk da fallin staRs dey disPpear beautifully bt wil neVeR apPear again...
for i nOE da ones tt i lyk wi nv lyk mi!
how can i forget feng
wenever i tried or i mit sumbody else he wil appear cum bk to mi
wen dey dun stay
he wil jz cum bk n outshine da rest
@ least he stayed as a fren for 4yrs!
he iz da one tt i wan bt i cant haf
u jz came bk to my life once again
hOw can i forget abt him too ?
tt's da reason y aft sOO lng he stil in my mind.
Aishhhhhhhhh..im tired i gif up..properbly fated to b single 4 life
sumtym hOw i wish i could jz turn bk tym!!!
i learn frm my mistakes n lesson..bt y tins alwaze gones wrg wen i tot i saw a gimple of hope
why? wat shld i do..
im reali sick n tired le..
so who iz my soul mate?
who iz da one 4 mi in da end?
who iz da lil prince im waitin for all dis while
haf u appeared? or haf u left or even slip away b4 i even notice
i alwaze believe tt dis world iz so big surely dere iz one person tt iz fated to b mine
i alwaze pray hard n waitin 4 ya plz dun let mi wait so lng my heart cant tk it animOre
seems tt i alwaze mit da wrg ones...
LOVE issh a big illusiOn i shld try to fOrget...
Its lyk MI, livin in dis wOrld of LIES... wif nO freNs n nOtiN.......
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