fallen to hell

no xmas for mi again
i cant even rem wen iz da laz tym i celebrated it?
all dis 4yrs i been wkin durin xmas sobz
to mk mi feel beta i tel myself
act xmas iz jz another dae..

been wkin for one WHOLE WK le n no off wth
n i tink i had fallen to HELL

i hate my rashness
my rashness n impluse wil b my downfall onedae
coz of tt i quitted my fav job
n landed in hell wif a yr bond
wat im i gona do nw?
oh god mite as well kil mi plz..

i suddenly miz crown so much

dis 2 yrs of dec seems to b hell for mi
i onli wish for a lil bit of hapPiness
bt iz seems so difficult...