failure

hmmz..i realise im such a failure..
im nt independent at all
im sO unleSs
im 20 wat have i achieved so far?
NOTHING!!!
moz of my sec sch frens graduated frm poly liao, if nt in U, a few stil in poly, even dose who din mk it to poly oso work 3/4 yrs liao..

wat im i gona do aft i grad? which iz soon if i paz my aoa n marketin can i?
wat im i gona work as?
i feel lyk shit nOw where iz da paz old mi?
da noisy, alwazin smilin, crazi, hardworkin, cheerful, friendly, talktive mi?

i used to sae tt i dun haf frens ones, my frens usually dun last.. i mean close 4 a while nia den nv reali contact
bt i realised iz act my fault..im da one who drifted apart frm dem first esp dis tym i tink i reali shut myself up, i chose to hide, chose to avoid frm everyone i duno y....
was readin sum of my sec sch frens blogs happi 4 da ones tt haf bf haha
nv imagine dem to haf bf coz dis 2 reali da reali shy ones..haha..i dun even haf loh
happi 4 dem all grad frm poly liao..bt so sad i noe dere stuff bt dey duno i noe..
coz i choose to remain unknown
i hate my life aft da iap everytin seems to change
i seems to lose myself..wat left iz jz a empty shell
i wasted tym n $$$ ended up wif notin stil da same as 2002 wif a cannt mk it olevel cert
moz of my sec sch frens graduated frm poly liao, if nt in U, a few stil in poly, even dose who din mk it to poly oso work 3/4 yrs liao..even my ite frens gg poly liao..
mi : NOtin!
no frens, no poly dip, no poly wan, no wkin experience,
ha wat a failure i am....a pathetic unleSs fOOl