i saw his profile n duno y i cried...i feel sOOoo sux..feel soo lOST once again..haiz..been nt myself animore..hate myself..ever since xam til nw i feelin da stress..haf no confidence in doin anitin..aft xam worse..n nw im back to square..feel so sux wenever i tink of tt qns? wat im i gg to do aft i graduate? dis qns has been huantin mi 4 yrs.. 3yrs le..nw it's back again..haiz..i reali haTe myself loh alwaze wen i encounter problems i wil choose to run away..escape frm it...da same problem isshhh baCkk!!! i hate to mk decisions loh reali HATE it..tt tym aft o level, den my retk nw again..i tried to escape by gg BMC tkin private Os den landed in ITE..n im back to da same qns again! wth.. wat i haf achieved? my frens r all graduatin frm poly soon..n MI stil da saME? kaoz wat haf i been dOIN??? jz wastin my tym loh..i noe i wun mk it to poly de..i dun wana work oso..wat can i wk as? sales gal, waitress n office i hate it..been so sick n tired of wkin lately..@ da age of 19 im tired of my life alreadi.....my 2 biggest burden in life..one iz him n dis which iz stil unsolved til nw 3yrs le..4 him i cant proceed forward or turn backward n thus i choose to escape..
GOD pls tel mi wat to do...hw i wish i could turn bk tym..sumtyms i wish to tel sumbody badly..i lok @ my hp bt i duno who to turn to..where are all my frens? i miz dose tyms..dose sharin sessions..i had difficulty in communicate wif ppl nw...

haiz..attachment iz another tin tt iz killin mi..i duno wat to do loh...i saw da office yst kao a cramped, small horrible environment loh messy files everywhere..i reali regretted duno y did i signed up..i haf no confi i duno anitin..wat shld i do? i dun wana go..i gt no clothes til nw i haven get anitin..i dun wana go i duno wat to do...n i hate myself...duno watssup wif mi...